So I had a very strange dream last night. Well, it was more disturbing than strange, but it was very strange as well. Now, first off, let me tell you that it isn't often that I remember my dreams but this one will be very hard to forget. My heart rate is going up as I thhink about it now, some 10 hours later. This is how it went:

I can't remember exactly how I got there but I was in an abulance and the paramedics were trying to get me to start breathing again. They tried but then they discovered something which meant that no matter what they did, I was going to die. So they said it was best to leave me in peace. So there I was on the Gosford waterfront (which had a small beachy strip attached to it), sitting on the wall, with my breath getting shorter and shorter. People present: Mum and the person I have liked for about 5 months. Anyways, no one was saying anything, mum was sitting at her study desk (don't know why it was there but it was) and she was doing tax forms or something really boring. And I was just sitting there running out of air minute after minute. And then I realized that I didn't want to die without the person I like knowing how I feel about them but I couldn't talk.... So I began rummaging in mum's desk for a peice of paper and a pen. Which I finally found - no thanks to mum. I started to write Mum and Dad a note to say goodbye to them. Then I started to write a note to this person. But I woke up and never got past the first line of either note.

Can I just say that this was the most distressing dream I have ever had. My heart rate goes up every time I have thought about it today and I start to panic. I don't know if it was just a random dream that should be ignored or something in my subconcious... anywho, I guess I'll never know. But I needed to get this out of my system Cos it's really shaken me up... though I'm no closer to telling this person that I like them.

So thankyou for reading this (if you have) and I hope you have a lovely week.
Your thoughts on this entry are most welcome.